Rape

just heard the news of another rape in haryana. was shocked and terrified with the increasing number of such heinous crime in our ‘desha me desh’ haryana. Already facing with a skewed sex ratio of 830 girls for 1000 boys, such incidences will only severe the already reducing number of girls in state.if the state cannot ensure the safety of girls infanticides will increase, further deteriorating the situation. Already cases have been found where girls are sold from other states and brought to haryana for marriage.
I feel sorry to live in a society which thinks that the solution to this problem is early marriage, so that their children don’t stray. 

I wonder what the parents of a girl child think every day, ‘will she return back to home safely today or will her soul be torn off by some street dogs. ‘
I am sorry if i’m disrespecting any animal because even animals seek their partners’ permission before mating.
but some parents are too weak to live everyday like this and prefer sacrificing their daughter, the innocent one just to make their own life a bit easier in this world.
In NCR region, some self proclaimed moral authorities attributed rape cases with the way girls dress. I wonder what exhibition of skin was done by the girls wearing salwar kameez in the humble background of village.
why can’t we accept that those evil creatures don’t see anything else but lust in their eyes. And they do exist and exist amongst our own society. we may have reached the moon but we certainly aren’t civilised yet.

want to be a child again, when the life was simple. when the life was about which choclate to buy or which cartoon to watch or whether to study for the exam next day or play cricket with your mates in park. and you know what was the good thing about those days, I always chose to play cricket instead of studying and still managed to get decent grades because I was happy. That feeling of happiness gave me enough positive energy to do good in my exams too. as we grow old, things start becoming complex, in hiding your emotions in front of others you actually forget your true emotions. In completing other’s expectations we actually forget what we expect from ourselves. In short we become what others want us to be, forgetting who we actually are. May be that is the reason of my frustration, and writing about this seems to be a nice way to ventilate that frustration. 

I remember the days in our old home when I used to stand on a 4 inch thick wall and walk on it without caring that how much I’ll get hurt if I fall from it. but now I can’t do it. coz i’m too afraid of the consequences or the dangers it offers. and I’m forbidding myself from the feeling of adventure just because of a possibility of danger. This is called being grown up.that's it for now . tc.

The Criminal

‘I was in gynaecology ward and a case of complicated pregenancy came across me.
the lady had 6 child and was giving birth to the 7th one.
I talked to the father and said don’t you know that so many child births have detoriated your wife’s health. why don’t you use birth protection. His reply was that the children are gift of god. why should we stop that. I asked him that how he is going to feed one more child when he already has 6 children. His reply was both terrifying and dismal to me.

he said “madam i’ll make them criminal , for my whole life i was on the path of right doing but i got nothing in return. I’ll make them criminals and they themselves will find a way to get their food.’
this is what i heard from a doctor friend. The incidence was not so shocking for me.
it was as if was ready to hear that kind of thing. I have been mulling over the decline in moral values of our country. The increasing gap between rich and the poor, the rise of selfishness and greed, the failure of the education system to supply moral education, and the population all these can be held accountable for such kind of incidence. the basic need for a society to survive is humbleness and inclusion. An example of not so related but similar nature was visible in the occupy wall street protest, when people were showing their rage against the 1 % of the people who get the maximum of everything leaving others empty handed. 

The issue concerning India is of more serious nature. with less than 3 % of area of the world and about 17.5 % of world’s population. we are making a huge stress on our resources.
In metro cities it is nearly impossible for a middle class man to own a house.
even the flats are costing a few crores in some areas. Inflation is breaking new records,
the irony with inflation is that it hurts the poor the most. for us , we will reduce our one or two outings to ccd or dominoz . but the real victims are the poor who don’t get 3 meals in a day.
now if a person who hadn’t had a meal for a few days can snatch food from other’s hands.
you will put him in jail considering him the culprit. but in my view the real culprit is this society which created the circumstances for a person to commit such crime.
it is the society which chose rat race instead of holding back to it’s morals.
it is the society which didn’t chose the leaders to forsee such future and act accordingly.
it is the society which exploited the resources so that there’s so less of them left

The day was sunny, I was walking out of my office after a hectic day while talking about misery of life with my colleagues. I took a cigarette from the neighbouring panwala, gave him the money and put my purse back in the upper pocket of my jacket. suddenly I saw a familiar face. “Oh god that idiot again” I was thinking. suddenly he came in front of me , said “how dare you talk to my girl ….” , or some thing which i don’t remember exactly. then I heard a loud sound “bang ” ,

 I could see a bullet piercing through the air and into my heart. Now I could hear the loud sound of my heart, slowly fainting away.

I could see My whole life coming in front of me, the unfulfilled dreams, the uncompleted promises, the hope in my parents’ eyes, all so visible. and now there were tears in my eyes, not because of fear of death, cause I knew that death has to come, but why so soon. I haven’t lived my life the way I wanted to. I haven’t seen the places I wanted to. I haven’t rained happiness in my parent’s life and I haven’t found the love of my life all I did was talk to that pretty girl in the office. so why I’m dying so soon....

and then there was no bright light, neither did any angel came to take me to heaven, may be the devil will welcome me , while thinking this I just fainted.

when I woke up I was thinking about seeing crying people or burning heat of hell , but instead I saw my self in an ac room of a hospital with all my family standing outside my room. The doctor showed my purse with a big hole in it , saying,” this thing saved your life, the purse slowed the speed of bullet and it got stuck in your ribs. you will be ok in a few weeks max.... ”



and then my family entered in the room ma pa and sis all were crying .. no they weren’t crying because I was alive.. it was the tears of joy .. :) ..

I felt like I was reborn again .. a new life …. and surely a better life.

I decided that from now on I’ll live life the way I wanted to. I quit my job, had thought of opening a company on my own, so I invested some saved money , worked really hard and in a few years I was an established business man. also, I wanted to continue my passion for golf so I gave my time and concentration to it and I was now playing golf professionally. I was born in a middle class family all my parents and I wanted was to get a good job and a good homely girl. but now I had achieved much more than what I had even demanded just because of a bullet that couldn’t pierce my heart. that incidence changed my life or did I wanted a reason to change my life, well, confusing for me. With these thoughts I was sitting in my office and suddenly a person came and started hitting me. he said ” wake up you idiot you are so late for office the boss will screw you up today... ” I replied to him “what the hell, I’m the boss how dare you...”. and suddenly I open up my eyes, I’m in the same shared apartment with my friend

“was that all a dream” “No, it can’t be it was so real... ”

“just take you purse and mobile and get up ..” my friend said.

I looked at the purse, there was no hole in it. not even a tiny one. I was so missing that burned leather which saved and changed my life....

I came out and took my cab … and on the way, I was just thinking that do I really need that bullet, to change my life into the way I want it to be..…...

The Bitter Truths ... "Satya grah"

being born in a conservative Indian family has it’s own disadvantages, you are expected to follow somethings without questioning them. while most of the things are right some do have a few flaws.
I really admire gandhi ji’s work in india’s independence, the unification of motive that they gave to indian people was one of it’s kind. But when i see a few other future and concurrent events i tend to think that the role of gandhi ji and satyagrah in indian independence is exagrated.
Gandhi ji recieved most of his divine teachings from geeta, in which “अहिंसा परमो धर्म ” was the quote he devoted his life to. I refer to the same speaker of geeta shri krishna had to go against his principle of “अहिंसा” and killed the kaurvas for the sake of truth.
i refer to the independence of goa , the operation vijay. On December 16, 1961, Indian troops crossed the border into Goa. Code named 'Operation Vijay', the move involved sustained land, sea, and air strikes for more than 36 hours; it resulted in the unconditional surrender of Portuguese forces on 19 December. before that In 1955 a group of unarmed civilians, satyagrahis demonstrated against Portugal. At least 22 of them were killed by Portuguese gunfire.
Later the same year, the satyagrahis took over a fort at Tiracol and hoisted the Indian flag. They were driven away by the Portuguese, with a number of casualties. doesn’t it seem an irony, when the british people left India in 1947, Portugal still had very small areas under it’s command till 1961, also that satyagradhi’s were ‘killed ‘ by them. a mention that satyagrahis are unarmed and non-voilent is important here. either it shows the impotence of the people to fight for what is theirs’ or it’s the too much trust in gandhian way of independence, which ultimately failed.
another Revelation that occurred during the period was USA’s stance towards India, as it was about to pass a resolution in UN Security Council against India’s move , that might have resulted in unconditional revoking of the orders. but USSR used it’s veto power saying it was an independence movement and not a threat against any country’s sovereignty. and now The good relations between USA and India today are just because of India’s increasing influence in world economy and it’s strategic importance being a neighbour to china. having good terms with any country is not bad , but keeping an eye open is always suggested.